The Mourners’ Dance

By Bänoo Zan | 13 Mar 26
Spencer M.F Rodrick

All through deserts, mountains, farms, forests

villages, towns, cities, and outposts 

we are burying our nation—

mourning thousands in graves

we are in graves

Words bend in blood

echo in myth— 

Silence is not our custom 

Out of great suffering

an ancient ritual is reborn:

to honour riders

whose departure shakes the 

pillars of the tribe—

whose test of virtue

was the trial through fire

in rhythm with batons and bullets

I dance on my grave

fierce with head held high

dance myself back to life—

a nation older than first and last breath

I am the coffin

I am the mourner carrying the coffin 

on shoulders heaving with grief

I am grief

My youth, I cannot bear your death

pretend I am at your wedding

bring a riderless horse

with hanging saddle

bring flowers and sweets 

ululation, trumpet, cymbal, and drums

pour dust on my head 

scratch my face

cut my braids

I dance with broken wings

Sleep, my love 

my deflowered flower

plucked scorched branded 

bereaved tulip

I dance a farewell dance

a war dance

a survival dance

The land convulses 

The stars fall in mass graves 

I am butchered 

but not disgraced—

not forgotten—

I am in my body—

my last trench—

a country beyond fear